Thursday, June 25, 2009
26 june 09
omg. countdown to mst : 3 more days. seriously, i need to solve this insomnia thingy. i can't have this shit happening to me everyday, especially when mst is coming up. oh my..
and whenever it gets to me, i'll just lie on my bed, and some stuff just kept flowing into my mind. and i kept thinking about them. sometimes, i do feel that i'm just no good enough. well, not just in the studies aspect. but also, in relationships.
no worries, there's nothing wrong with my dar and i. i'm just becoming emo when i can't fall asleep. don't know why either, it just gets to me. in certain ways, i just feel inferior. in one way or another, i could not help it. i don't want to BE this way either.
for example, one simple thing, jealousy. i'm kinda sensitive when it concerns some people. we can be VERY good friends, sisters in a way. but, for some reason, jealously comes, of course, with dar involved. it's not really his problem. more of mine. lol. but i love to have her around. we can just laugh and talk loudly like nobody's business. being silly at the same time too.
there are some other stuff too, which i don't really want to say it. i'll just keep it to myself. me and me only=)
i guess i'm just being emo here. i'm thinking too much. sometimes, i'll just cry till i fall asleep.
okay, i NEED to kick this insomnia away. or else, i'm going to be emo forever. lol.
anyway, thanks dar, for everything. and the chat=)
feeling so much better. although i might still think about it later when to get to my bed. haha. but talking to you did a great deal of help.
i know you'll love me no matter what, for who i am, and i will love you always too=)
i miss you<3
what we could have been, 12:41 AM.
